Inside out/blackout

This is me...
I am not as weak nor as pathetic as you think i am..

I am a creature with a hidden agenda. Agenda you do not know and for you to find out...

Have i stunned you lately that i am about to make your world upside down?

Are you scared now?, perhaps not but a little,a little pain can grow a big injury and leaving you with a scar you will never forget....

I have the power,i have the mechanism of making it work,
I will shock you,threaten you with my somewhat ambition and vision you will never get to imagine...
Because it is what i have i my mind
To let you know that i'm about to leave you thinking what i am capable of
And for you to always know
I'm not as weak nor pathetic as you think I am

I always know i have it in me
I just can't let it all out
Because you were there to block it
And now i'm here to break the walls
Yes,the walls..
The walls you built long time ago
And now i'm breaking it
And it's for you to count your fate and see where it lies...

The Point of No Return

Dirty freaks,

Dirt, shame, disgust,

of NAMES, of LIFESTYLE, of DIGNITY...

To how much I nauseate you,

With what I am,

What I truly feel,

You feel sick, drowned in agony.

Bring on your deadly weapon of humiliation ,

Your sickening act of disrespect,

Shallow courtesy,

Losing your balance of wisdom,

You don't commit what you preach..

People say, what goes around come around,

as much I'm a mirror to you,

The dung you throw at me will as much hits you in the FACE..

The more you hate me, the more you hate yourself,

The more you want to kill me, the more you feel like committing suicide..

This is a place of no return,

What you do today will do you tomorrow,

I'm a dirt but I eat it all up,

Cos I know myself,

I'm the freak that doesn't choose 

I just consider,

The cleanest spot I can find in the chaos,

And I know your soul doesn't belong there,

It's me myself, myself, my soul....

my grumblings........it's grumbling even worse than a grievance

here's what i've got to say...

from that moment on,

i know you would be the one,

a friend to look up to,

someone i adore,

someone i can call a friend,

someone i feel i can talk to,

someone i know who knows best,

someone's good inside out..

i disregarded what's blocking me,

i diminished with my forced energy whatever gets in my way,

i destructed my inferiority with my supermasive detemination,

to get it all to better it all,

i consumed my anxiety 

i constrained my doubts

just to believe in you that you are the best of all

every minute with you was a blessing,

everytime you were here made me smile,

every absence of yours made the world go round,

laughter, joy, jokes, tears, anger, fear and ambitions,

you blended it all well...

and that's what tasted unspoken-ably sweet..no words to describe...

but here you go, that was a WAS not IS NOW...

why do you look at me so cheap in your eyes,

why can't you see me,

why can't you pay respect to me,

why and i need an answer......................

remember this day that whatever happens one day you will realize no one prays hardest for you but me......and you would know that when the world comes crashing down......